im going away for a time. Not that it matters much since I lack activity anywayXD

Last couple of days has given me everything from wanting to throw up to wanting to hurt myself. SO atm im saying good bye online sadly because of my life outside. and nothings going to change my mind about coming back. Um taking off things or I'll throw them in storage. If I do come back it wont be to this account i can promise. I'll watch my friends..but I wont tell them who I am.

Im sorry to all but then again no

Im sorry i havent commented on anything or said anything about anyones journals and been..absent or what ever but..*shrugs doesnt really have an excuse*

If you care basiclly ive lost little brian i have. I have a friend, like said friend and..well now i dont want to go to school really. Ive done such upsetting things to my friends. The this guy I USED to chill with and REALLY REALLY like moves tomarrow and..bastard!! I honestly hate you for this! This person i like is datingT_T and my friend got her backed turned on by a good guy...basically every emo, druggy and misfit at my school wants to kill that guy like he deserves.

..Hope everyone is chipper and happy and i'll try to go through things...

people i havent talked to forever you have my loves

*giggles* Im so weird todayXD This last week has been damage control I swear but its over with and moving on. I finally am getting around to doing things Ive been trying to get used to the new schdules at school which suck. -__- thanks Mr. Aune for changing everything. The flipped flopped my whole schdule except english. which Ms. Baker hates me i swear. < <

I've been sick to which didn't help finding things. But I've made new friends too. My classes with my pals are totally washed up so I have only 3 classes with them but lunch too so thats nice^^

I met though this crazy girl in my science class i got switched into. It's so weird because we never have talked a day in our lives and after a while we are like talking all the time.XD seriously the only person at my school who likes yaoi thats not the yaoiboys...or this weird friend of mine whose kind of clueless i think. > > LOL

Otherwise though lifes awsome. Got a corkboard finally*feels loved* and my mommy said she MAY get me an iPod which i'd love because my mp3 died already-_- why music why why*sniffs*

Oh and my psycho theater teacher is making his B day class(my class, b day, has like 15 kids in it) an inprov group and we're thinking of names and things. Like L.O.L., Shannanigins(sp?). so far we've gotten this dying one and a few at a bus stop. Im really looking forward to it, even if im not that awsome.

ok thats my drabble i hope you all are doing fabulous!

im losing things i never thought i would im thinking things i really wish i wouldnt. Im fighting it off for the sake of those i care for so im distancing myself from my friends and soon most likely i'll seperate myself from my family. Its only wise thought atm.

I would love to explain whats going on. I'd love to explain whats happening but i cant explain something i dont understand. I want it to go but it wont leave so im doing the next best thing I can. Dont worry im not wanting to hurt myself i just think distance from friends is wise before i hurt anyone. Im hoping it will be done and done with this night but i wont garentee a thing I cant promise.

you have my permission to completely ignore me on this subject matter. I just needed to get something out and thats all this is for. nothing more nothing less

FAKE FRIENDS/REAL FRIENDS

FAKE FRIENDS: Never ask for food.
REAL FRIENDS: Are the reason you have no food.

FAKE FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr / Mrs
REAL FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD/MOM

FAKE FRIENDS: Never seen you cry
REAL FRIENDS: Cry with you

FAKE FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back
REAL FRIENDS: Keep your stuff so long they forget it's yours

FAKE FRIENDS: Know a few things about you
REAL FRIENDS: Could write a book about you with direct quotes from you

FAKE FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing
REAL FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds butt that left you

FAKE FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door
REAL FRIENDS: Walk right in and say 'I'M HOME!'

FAKE FRIENDS: Are for awhile
REAL FRIENDS: Are for life

FAKE FRIENDS: Will talk bad to the person who talks bad about you.
REAL FRIENDS: Will knock the person out that talked bad about you

FAKE FRIENDS: Would ignore this
REAL FRIENDS: Will send this to all their real friends and hope to get it back!

If you were killed today, I'm sorry I wouldn't be able to come to your funeral, because I'd be in jail for killing the person who did it.


*FALLS OVER LAUGHING* this is SO true and those of you that have REAL friends your parents think there crazy. I love my REAL friends becuase they are sooooo insane I woulnt change them for the worldXD